composer FAIL #105

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Today is the first day of classes, so while I hope all the technology in the classroom works and that it’s okay to not have hard-copies of the syllabus available to my students (the printer in my office is way low in toner), I can look at a photo of this magical flourless chocolate cake and/or this screenshot of a rejection letter. You choose.

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This one is over a year old! Am I failing at posting my rejection letters? (Probably. Time for a cocktail. 🥃)

composer FAIL #104

Some people ask me if I still receive rejection letters. I do, just not as many as I used to, mainly because I don’t apply to as many competitions nowadays.

But I think I’ve achieved a new accomplishment: receiving rejection letters from competitions I didn’t apply to.

Take this email: I don’t think I actually applied to this one, but I truly can’t tell you if I applied or not. Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t.

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Truth be told, I’d love to write for wind quintet, but I probably wouldn’t know what I’m doing. (Don’t tell my students.)

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Guys! I’m back. (Or at least I hope I’m back?) I know my infamous blog has been sadly neglected, but I’ve decided I’m going to post something once a week during the academic semester.

Therefore, you can now (hopefully) look forward to fifteen weeks of rejections, cocktails, acceptances, and cats on occasion.

[In other news: I will be with the Ohio University Wind Symphony this weekend when they record Lichtweg/Lightway. I can’t wait. Also, my short piano response to Scriabin’s Op. 8 No. 1 étude (“Recomposed Scriabin”) is now available for download and purchase. Enjoy!]


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But I like writing for the horn. 😢

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composer FAIL #103

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This rejection is from a few months ago, and ironically I kind of wonder if I should be posting it because I just submitted a new application. Oh well.

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I knew I was receiving this rejection letter because they hadn’t asked me to fly out to New York City and meet them, so ultimately I decided to fly myself out to Washington D.C. instead for a performance. Totally worth it.

Composer FAIL #100

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Guys. GUYS. I have made it. I have finally accomplished the milestone of achieving one hundred (documented) Composer FAILs, and now I’m wondering what to do with my life.

First off, I should probably make a speech.

I would like to say this. Failure is not something you can do on your own. Many, many people contributed to my failures. I would like to thank my parents for not completely comprehending why or how I’m a composer or why I post my rejection letters online, the multiple gatekeepers who took a chance on an unknown composer, and last but not least, the wonderful crews from Blogger (then Medium, and now WordPress) who spend hours coding and creating an easy-to-use platform without which I might never be able to curate my rejections.

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Yes, #100 is a double-rejection!

So, cheers everyone. I will be celebrating my rejection letters in style, since it took me seven years to accumulate every single one of them.

Composer FAILs—going strong since 2010.

I am a naaaaaaaasty woman

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Here is a quick note to say that I am beyond proud and honored to count so many women as my friends and colleagues. Unfortunately I did not march (it was audition weekend, but then I ended up catching a cold that left me bedridden), but man, what a day.

My composer friend Marie Incontrera probably expressed my sentiment best:

 

I am not marching today. I am not protesting today. My entire existence, for the next four years, is resistance. My art, my survival.

Amen sister.

(More on this later, once I’ve finished my next piece.)

Composer FAIL #98

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Here is a submission into the Composer FAIL category where I’m not sure if this is a FAIL or WIN, so I’ll let you guys decide.

Dulciana Vocal Ensemble had a Call for Scores.

“Emerging female composers are invited to submit works for unaccompanied upper voices for inclusion in Dulciana Vocal Ensemble’s second ♀concert. Selected works will be performed alongside pieces by Estonian composer Galina Grigorjeva, and recordings will be provided to the composers. Successful pieces will show a good understanding of writing for the idiom, and display an original, creative compositional voice.”

So I submitted Prisoner of Conscience.

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Since this was a call for female composer scores, I went with a pseudonym that was equally fantastic and amazing as Captain Hammer.

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